Waaaahhhh being parents is tiring... ni baru satu bulan belum lagi our whole life. my life nowadays definitely revolves around azalia. Kesian asa who I have been neglecting this past few weeks because I was still adjusting to my new role. Hopefully I can be the wife I used to be to him soon.

My mornings start with me waking up to her cries because it's her feeding time, and then if sempat, I'll make asa's coffee. And then around 9 I'll give her a bath, feed her again, and wait for her to fall asleep so I can get some chores done. Around noon, it's feeding time again, and we'll watch oprah together until she's sleepy again. And then it's back to doing more chores and oh yes, me eating and taking a bath. She's definitely the happiest in the morning, but gets cranky at night. She's not that bad though because she only wakes up at night for feeding and most of the time she goes back to sleep after she's full.

All this is not easy. It did put a bit of strain in our relationship, but as I've always stressed, communication is the key to a healthy relationship, and because of that we've managed so far. Asa helps out quite a lot. Sometimes when I'm too tired and I need to crash early, Asa will take care of her. Although he still has trouble with cleaning up her muntah but he's doing well in other areas.

I think living with my parents makes it easier because of the support that we get from them and my siblings. I am definitely not looking fwd to going back to work because I WANT TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABY AND MY BABY'S DADDY!!! but I don't have half a mil to pay off my debt so.... I'm paying it WITH MY LIFE !!!!

What I miss ever since I had her? well I do miss doing what ever I want when I want to, for eg, just get up and going out and not having to bother with strollers, baby carriers, breastmilk, etc.But then again, if I don't have her, I'll miss not having her.

Shash asked, whether life is better now. I wouldn't say it's better because life was great even before I had her. What I would say is that it's different. Good different. It's not easy and it's hard work and more responsibilty but the reward is definitely worth it. Seeing her smile gets us so excited, hearing her coos and funny little noises cheers us up. She's a funny girl, I can tell.

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