Our first raya with Azalia

Waaaahhhh being parents is tiring... ni baru satu bulan belum lagi our whole life. my life nowadays definitely revolves around azalia. Kesian asa who I have been neglecting this past few weeks because I was still adjusting to my new role. Hopefully I can be the wife I used to be to him soon.

My mornings start with me waking up to her cries because it's her feeding time, and then if sempat, I'll make asa's coffee. And then around 9 I'll give her a bath, feed her again, and wait for her to fall asleep so I can get some chores done. Around noon, it's feeding time again, and we'll watch oprah together until she's sleepy again. And then it's back to doing more chores and oh yes, me eating and taking a bath. She's definitely the happiest in the morning, but gets cranky at night. She's not that bad though because she only wakes up at night for feeding and most of the time she goes back to sleep after she's full.

All this is not easy. It did put a bit of strain in our relationship, but as I've always stressed, communication is the key to a healthy relationship, and because of that we've managed so far. Asa helps out quite a lot. Sometimes when I'm too tired and I need to crash early, Asa will take care of her. Although he still has trouble with cleaning up her muntah but he's doing well in other areas.

I think living with my parents makes it easier because of the support that we get from them and my siblings. I am definitely not looking fwd to going back to work because I WANT TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABY AND MY BABY'S DADDY!!! but I don't have half a mil to pay off my debt so.... I'm paying it WITH MY LIFE !!!!

What I miss ever since I had her? well I do miss doing what ever I want when I want to, for eg, just get up and going out and not having to bother with strollers, baby carriers, breastmilk, etc.But then again, if I don't have her, I'll miss not having her.

Shash asked, whether life is better now. I wouldn't say it's better because life was great even before I had her. What I would say is that it's different. Good different. It's not easy and it's hard work and more responsibilty but the reward is definitely worth it. Seeing her smile gets us so excited, hearing her coos and funny little noises cheers us up. She's a funny girl, I can tell.

awanis

baby azalia

On 04/06/07 at 11.48am baby azalia was born into this world. It was a very eventful delivery. We were expecting a normal delivery(with epidural of course) because everything was going well but after about 7 hrs since my water broke and I was only 4 cm dialated, her heartbeat dropped and the doctor and midwife was pushing me for a c-section because there are signs that she is in distress. So ceasarean it is and since since I was already on epidural, they increased the dosage and I was wide awake throughout the operation. I couldn't feel the pain of course, but I could feel the they were pulling the baby out of me, they were pushing the placenta to take it out etc. kesimpulannye rasa macam kene korek..

anyway the moment I heard her cry I was in tears myself because I was soooo relieved. Asa azankan right after they cut her umbilical cord and he was relieved too that both mother and baby are alright.

So currently I am resting and hopefully will recover soon. My recovery will be longer than those who have a normal delivery but I'm hoping it will not be more than 2 weeks . The really painful times was the first 3 days. The pain currently is bearable but I still have trouble moving around and pulling myself up from the bed. Asa will be getting back to work next week but I wish he won't but what to do... My mom will be getting back to work the week after so hopefully I can be more mobile by then.Both of them have been a big help in doing things for the baby so I need to get better soon so that I can do everything by myself.

People keep on asking me how does it feel to be a mother. Honestly, the first few days, I didn't feel anything . I was in too much pain to bother and I was just looking forward to getting better. But now I am better, I can sincerely say, I am very happy to be one.

p.s: pictures can be seen at my fotopages

counting the days.....

I'm due 1st June. I thought I might deliver early but I have a feeling that I won't. We had a false alarm 2 weeks ago because my contractions were every 10 minutes. everyone was excited but after 2 hrs or so it subsided and was only over 20 minutes and then everything was normal again. haiyaaaa and i thought i was going to get this baby out of me soon. My body is so tired!!!! i have backache, elephant's feet, chubby short fingers... i walk like a penguin and my bum hurts!!! sabar sabar...:p..

anyway, pnbians held a baby shower for me last week and it was sooo much fun!!! there were lots of pressies and FOOD!!!!!! cepatlah someone else get pregnant pulak then we can buy pressies!!!! heehhehe

Asa have been quite anxious about being a father. He had a lot of work the other day and had to work during the weekends and he was wondering how in the world would he be a father at the same time. Well... we'll just have to wait and see but I'm sure he'll be great. He just doesn't know it yet. :p

to those who were asking for pictures of me and my big belly.. well i have it but the internet sucks so i got tired of trying to upload them. so just come and visit me and i'll show them to you k. OKlah.... nothing much else going on in our lives other than waiting for me to pop.... !!!! so i guess that's it then.

awanis

it's saturday morning

So it's saturday, Asa is still asleep and supposedly I have to do the household chores ie, laundry etc but am stuck in front of this thing for awhile. Not so good news going on at work lately, a big possibility of more work coming at us soon, our big boss just quit, i don't blame him. He was not appreciated at all in this 'great' organisation i'm working with. Won't go into details but most of us are upset that he won't be around. We were hoping that he could turn this little department around but sad to say the board won't let it happen. We still don't know who our future big boss might be but rumours has it, the proposed one is not an easy man to work with and very conservative...org lama lah katakan... board suka lah.

However, am currently enjoying the working environment i'm in right now. Everyone is relaxed but working hard at the same time. Our managers are so down to earth that it's easy to work with them, mind you, if you screw up you'll still get it from them. I hope this environment will be maintained even when we move to the 'mothership' and even when the new boss comes in. sigh...

another not so good news, our benefits were revised and the kos bersalin has been capped at RM6k. hmmmmm at damansara specialist, that is enough for a normal natural birth but i think epidural would cost more. Will call them up and see how much I will have to add to get my painkiller.. hehehehe... is this a sign that i'm not suppose to take it????

p.s: baby calms down after endless kicking or head banging when asa puts his hand on my tummy. looks like baby will listen to her daddy but not her mommy..hehe

awanis

It's a GIRL!!!!!!!!

Last Saturday the scan showed that we are going to have a GIRL!!!!! asa preferred our first child to be a boy... because he has no idea how to bring up a girl... but my mom's family are all excited it's going to be a girl because the last girl baby we had was .... 13 years ago??? anyway.... we are all looking forward to her arrival and i have so many things to do!!!! i am entering my 3rd trimester and my due date is still June 1st. I have to start buying baby stuff ie cot, clothes, baby bath tub...etc, find a nursery..OMG so many things to do!! and the responsbilities!!!!!.

However the coming exam ( first week of April) has dampen my spirits a bit mostly because i HAVE NOT STUDIED!!!! AT ALL!!! DID NOT ATTEND ANY CLASSESS (maybe only 2 ) !!!!!!....

Asa and I are still finding a suitable name. Thank you all for your suggestions however we have yet to make a decision on one that we truly love. I think I'll just call the baby by all the names in my head and see which one she responds to... hehehehehehe

The doctor also wants me to prepare a birth place eg: if I want asa to be around when i deliver, do i want epidural etc.... I am seriously thinking of taking epidural though there are risks of having back pains later if not done properly but the pain... oh the pain.. I am not good with pain and this is going to be the painest(no such word i'm sure) of all pain!!!!!...

So that's it.... for an update on Asa... well... believe me.. there's nothing much going on there.

awanis

Finally.. An update from the blog master

HEY HOOOO!!

Ok, just making a dramatic entry after being away for such a long time. Haven't been blogging for a while, partly busy with work and partly plain old malas. Nway, I guess everyone are drooling waiting for an update (at least I know Eddie is) so here is one. Ok funny picture first.


Man, talk about baby instinct. Hope he/she didn't carry the habit in the future when he/she grows up, or ppl will start calling him/her PerPer. Hey, but it does shows mommy's education not wasted. Baby knows food when he/she (can I call him/her it?) sees one. But he should hone on the skill of differentiating on what is real or what is fake. That skill should come handy. ;p

Ok back to my married life, what's new. Well, we are going for another scan tomorrow. Hopefully we can know whether it's a girl or a boy. Come on baby, open up. Show Daddy whether you have got 'it' or not.

Ok back on some serious note, thanks you guys for all your prayer and well wishes. Baby and mommy alike have been healthy up until today. In fact I just felt he/she kicked twice last night. Helllooo~ Well if it's a boy, way to go son you're gonna be a football star later (abah nyer kaki bangku). If it's a girl, uh-oh she might just have Anis' temper tantrum.. Hehe, just kidding.

Ok that's it for today. Thanks for reading.

Cheers!

demam demam demam

It's my 3rd time demam within 2 months!!!!!!! My immune system is really on its low because how often can someone get the flu??? I feel like I need to take sometime off work but the Chinese New Year weekend is near and there's a long weekend to look forward to. I want to kumpul my cuti and use it when the baby comes.

We've received our confirmation on which departments we will be working in for almost the rest of ourlives??? let's hope not. Most of us got what we wanted, including me. There were a few surprises but nothing major... I think. One or two were upset but.......everything might be fine afterall.... let's wait and see...

ok... updates about Asa now. He's been quite busy this past few weeks with work and Magic. I finally got the name of his department correctly, It's International Network and Operation (Wow that took me 5 months to get it correct..hahahha). Give me more time to understand what he does ok. He's weight is.... not going down.. hehehe. His tummy is as big as mine now. He just got a haircut. He spends a lot of time with Zaaba and runs to his house whenever my cousins are at ours. (hmmmmm it's so fishy.. they are afterall from koleq.. hehehehe). I still don't understand their conversation on Magic. I had to explain to my relatives what Magic is because he has been missing/were late for a few family gatherings. I explained by describing Magic as a card game like pokemon but an adult version...( zaaba said that's so downgrading :p).

I guess that's it. Oh no.... both my nostrils are blocked...

he or she????

Yep yep.. we thought we would find out the gender of the baby last week but since the baby is in breach i.e kaki bwh kepala atas... there's no room for it to stretch so we cannot see its u-know-what.

Anyway.. i think i need help in finding a name for this baby.The plan is to have a name that starts with the letter 'A' but the problem is almost everyone in our family has names that starts with the same letter so all the good names that i like eg. asyraff,arman,adam,anisah etc are taken.Give me ideas plssss!!!Asa only gave me 2 ideas for a boy's name
1) aragorn - so that the child will be called aragon son of asahara (i know..LAME!!!)
2) analkin skywalker...- no comment

see my dilemma.....

For a girl's name... asa also gave 2 ideas
1) arwen - LAME!!
2) azhani - i quite like this BUT.. azhani bt azhari??? well not too sure abt that.

I appreciate some good ideas ok ppl!!!

Other than that life is... the usual. u tell me wut u want to know n i'll tell u... because seriously ppl there's nothing going on in our life currently.

However we(mgmt trainees) did have a presentation which was supposedly our final assessment to determine which dept we're going to. It made no difference to me how I did during the presentation because our bos told us that he would do everything that he can to keep us and I think I'm happy to stay where I am. But my sr officer did advice me to do ACCA or other professional qualifications if I were to stay in accounts because that is basically the only way for me to go anywhere in the dept... so yeah.. am planning to study but am still trying to sort out the time and finances since Asa is also planning to continue his studies.I just hope I can do all this and be a mother at the same time.

I guess that's all for now..

awanis

no news is good news...

sorry everyone for the lack of updates. I guess both of us are back to our bad habit of not updating that much. I have a good reason though..since it's the end of the year, we in the accounts dept have been extra busy .We actually came in for work last saturday and monday and for some..on tuesday!!!!. Anyway.. I actually like doing accounts.. hahaha!! I know I know my senior keep on telling me I'll start to hate it after I've done it for a few years because it's sooooo routine.. but hey.. for now.. it's new and it's exactly what I expected when I studied it..

Asa on the other hand.. also have some work to do.. he had to prepare a presentation of some sort for his boss and that made him use some of his brain cells. He's also involved in some sort of project so that keeps him busy at work.. I guess. I don't really understand what he does. He tells me and I don't mind listening but I don't actually digest them... bad bad me :p. But that's what we do nowadays.. I talk about my work and I'm not sure if he understands or not but he listens and gives the appropriate response and vice versa. I guess it's not really about totally understanding about what the other one does, but actually makes the effort to listen and support one another..

Ok here's the update about the baby.. Went to my monthly check up.. the doc said everything looks fine. Gender still unknown..maybe next month but he's putting his money on a girl because usually if it's a boy you can see its genital by the 4th month and currently it's a no show. So we shall wait and see. The position of the baby is still quite low... but the doc said if I'm not bleeding than there's nothing to worry about. He gave me some huge pink vitamin pills to take daily and I hate them and have trouble taking them consistently.. plus!!!! huge calcium pillss!!! argh I hate meds..... so that's it.. oh and he expects me to gain 1.5 kg nx month because that's the normal rate for weight gain. I'm short by 0.5kg this month but it's not my fault.. this baby is so choosy!!!! right now.. i'm not into rice and I used to love and must have rice every day kind of person!!!!! argghhhh anyway.. the morning sickness is fading and am feeling much2 better. Am getting a sore throat though but hopefully this will go away soon. Asa by the way is gaining more weight than me and keeps telling me he's gaining all the weight for me... what the hell??!!! he tries to lose it though by going to the gym but... he only goes for about 30mins.. haiyaaaaaa.. nvrmind.. just as long as he is healthy.. so that's it..

awanis